Each day is a new day. Sometimes, this is a good thing. Some evenings are hard to get through because I think this busyness and pain will never end. Then in the morning, God's mercies really are new! It's astonishing. Then some mornings, I wake up only thinking of Jonah and feeling the emptiness and aching heart. Last night we arrived in Kansas City to stay at a hotel with my parents and go to the Gem and Mineral Show today. We enjoyed the pool and hot tub, yet I was mad I could enjoy the hot tub because I am no longer pregnant. It was a mix of amazing and upsetting. There are many moments like that in my life right now. I absolutely love seeing moms with babies everywhere, yet my heart feels pain. God is getting me through, moment by moment.
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Thanks for sharing honestly with us. We are thinking of you and praying for you. Glad you got to get away for the weekend. Sounds like fun!
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